I am a 33 year old female and suffering from Social Phobia. I always was shy as a child but in primary school I remember I loved to preform poems and things like that. The older I get the more I get the problem with social situations. Until the point that I sat in school and said almost nothing. Just hoping the teacher wouldn’t ask me nothing. And if yes I got extremely embarrassed. My heart was beating like crazy, my face blushed red and my hands begun to trembling and sweeting. Also I got this feelings in gatherings (5 or more people). I eventually just felt well in a one to one contact. Then 3 years ago I found my way to yoga. And I have to say this helps me a lot to gain more confidence and to master my everydays life. But the problem when I am in a group situation to discuss something still remains. I fell dull in my head. Just thinking what the others are thinking about me. Unable to speak. I then can’t think clearly and I am unable to stay focused. Blackout! To cover this up I even drunk alcohol to be able to get through this situation. This is just horrible! And I know for sure that alcohol isn’t a solution and the other day I hate me for that. But sometimes I can see no other way out.
I am a slim person with red hairs and a lot of freckles (I hated those and my red hairs. since I am doing yoga I am feeling pretty comfortable with it)
In Ayurveda you would say I am definitely the Pitta Typ.
I have almost always have cold hands and feet. And every morning I have to spell out a lot of phlegm.
I have Vitiligo under my eyes.
I also suffered from migraine with aura but I haven’t had this since 2 years. Which I guess is due to my yoga practise.
I am emotional but suppress this part of me since I learnt that from my parents. I know that’s not a good behavior. But when showing my feelings I feel often guilty. I think that I am a firely person but maybe this is all chocked by a lot of water. I don’t know.
Maybe you can help me with an advice for TCM herbs to improve my situation. That would be nice since I notice that this condition holds me away from my life. I would love to make the teacher trainer in yoga and other things. But this crap holds me back from actual living.
Thanks a lot in advance!