Submitted By: cchope
Thank you in advance for listening and responding.
I went to see an acpuncturist for a chief complaint of depression at the end of last year. One interesting question she asked me was if I felt like I was being watched or as if someone was watching me. At the time, I didn't think too much of it and responded no. However, as time as gone on and I'm getting better from my depression, I've discovered I actually have a lot of anxiety (no surprise since depression and anxiety often go hand in hand). I wasn't as aware about the anxiety until recently because I've found ways to relieve it like meditating, deep breathing, and talking through it. However, I just realized this week that I've had a constant basal level of anxiety for so long that I can't remember when it started (perhaps 10 years ago) and that it feels normal. Only now have I noticed I constantly have a tense abdomen/stomach knots. For some reason, that question the acupuncturist asked came back into my mind and now I realize the answer to that question is yes. I want to say it's me watching myself, constantly judging, self-criticizing, and telling myself all these "shoulds" to conform to society's rules.
So my question is, what does "someone watching you all the time" have to do with depression or liver qi stagnation? Or does it have to do with anxiety? Are the two conditions linked in the TCM diagnosis? Any recommendations on what I can do about it?
Thanks again and have a great day!